Thursday, January 7, 2010


Describe what you would change about yourself if you could.

We had a delightful Christmas this year. Pulling together to ask Santa for a family present was a brilliant idea, the kids got their wii and Santa had an easy delivery. Perfect.

It was a beautiful day and we felt very blessed.
So when Jamie told me this morning that Santa had not visited the home of one of her school friends it knocked the breath right out of me. And when she said that her friend had explained, "Well my little brother was kind of bad this year." My heart crumbled, falling down into my gut where sharp pieces of it have been stabbing me all day.
Growing up, I would cuddle my one cherished baby doll and wonder just what my wealthy friends had done to deserve the overflowing bounty from the big man in red. Never once did it cross my mind that perhaps I had been bad only that they must have been EXTRA good. So to think of those sweet innocent children coming to the conclusion that they must have somehow ended up on the naughty list is too painful to bear. And to think of their poor single mom left alone on Christmas with no one to turn to... ouch.
Every Christmas we (and so many others) try to reach out to those in need, but knowing that there are still those who fall between the cracks makes me want to do more. And that's the one thing I would change about myself if I could. I would do more.
I'd be more aware, more alert, more in tune to what's going on around me. I would seek more spiritual guidance to be a better servant in the Lord's hands and I'd pray more to know how I could help those in need.
Yes that's what I would change if I could.
And good news...
I can.

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The Crazy Coxes said...

I love your post!
Your family looks darling.
I'm with you.
I could do more. I can do more. IF I change my attitude! ;)

Christine said...

Awwww....amen to that!!

Marcie said...

I just read "The Christmas Jars." If you haven't read it, it is about a family that fills jars with their change over the course of the year, and then drops them off (secretly) to people who need them.

You've just convinced me that I'm going to do that this year.

CaJoh said...

Stopping by from Mama Kat's…

You are the first person I saw that took on this writing prompt who indicated that they can— congratulations. So glad that I am not the only one who knows that they can change things.

Thank you for sharing,

Unknown Mami said...

My heart is breaking for that family. Wonderful post.

Tara McClendon said...

How unfortunate for that child. I had a grandpa who believed every kid should get a lump of coal in his or her stocking, but he also believed in something good, as well. He said it proved that Santa could be forgiving (like we should be in real life).

greedygrace said...

Oh, your post is so awesome! I'm so vain, I was crying about my flabby thighs and my buck teeth! Thanks for giving me some perspective!

4boyzmdmom said...

We did the family gift thing, also...and got the same thing! I wish I could do more, too. There are people all around me in need, I'm sure, but the hard part is figuring out who they are.