I'm ready...

I recently picked this journal up at a thrift store. It's called "Around the Year With C.S. Lewis & His Friends"

It shares excerpts from C.S. Lewis' journals at the top of the page, followed by a space to record my thoughts, then ends with a wonderful quote in Words for this day. It's fabulous I tell you, FABULOUS.

Today I wrote:

The stumbling blocks that I have used to build walls, because it is much easier to hide behind walls, must come down. I must walk through the ruble, being strengthened with every step, so that I can be ready to be the Lord's servant. I will work on me so that He can work through me. It is a very exciting time indeed. I know that if I do my part I will see God's miracles this year. He will lead me to exactly where I need to be when I need to be there.

I testify to you that I know these words are true. Just as I know that it is no coincidence that the words for this day read:

"I know that good is coming to me--that good is always coming, though few have at all times the simplicity and courage to believe it."

~George MacDonald, the last page of PHANTASTES.

It is also no coincidence that this mornings scripture study led me to words that confirmed that I am on the right path, or that at the very moment this knowledge was given to me through scripture, words, and ponderings, I was slammed with feelings of fear, doubt and great darkness, feelings that led me to reflect on the words of the day from January first:

"It does not do to leave a live dragon out of your calculations, if you live near him."

~J.R.R. Tolkien, THE HOBBIT

I know that I do live near a live dragon. Satan, the father of lies, will try to destroy me throughout my journey and I must remember him in my calculations, recognizing his deceptions and pushing through them, if I am ever to succeed.

And I tell that dragon, I am a follower of Christ

My sword is drawn, and I am ready to fight