Monday, January 11, 2010

I'm ready...

I recently picked this journal up at a thrift store. It's called "Around the Year With C.S. Lewis & His Friends"

It shares excerpts from C.S. Lewis' journals at the top of the page, followed by a space to record my thoughts, then ends with a wonderful quote in Words for this day. It's fabulous I tell you, FABULOUS.

Today I wrote:
The stumbling blocks that I have used to build walls, because it is much easier to hide behind walls, must come down. I must walk through the ruble, being strengthened with every step, so that I can be ready to be the Lord's servant. I will work on me so that He can work through me. It is a very exciting time indeed. I know that if I do my part I will see God's miracles this year. He will lead me to exactly where I need to be when I need to be there.

I testify to you that I know these words are true. Just as I know that it is no coincidence that the words for this day read:
"I know that good is coming to me--that good is always coming, though few have at all times the simplicity and courage to believe it."
~George MacDonald, the last page of PHANTASTES.

It is also no coincidence that this mornings scripture study led me to words that confirmed that I am on the right path, or that at the very moment this knowledge was given to me through scripture, words, and ponderings, I was slammed with feelings of fear, doubt and great darkness, feelings that led me to reflect on the words of the day from January first:

"It does not do to leave a live dragon out of your calculations, if you live near him."
~J.R.R. Tolkien, THE HOBBIT

I know that I do live near a live dragon. Satan, the father of lies, will try to destroy me throughout my journey and I must remember him in my calculations, recognizing his deceptions and pushing through them, if I am ever to succeed.

And I tell that dragon, I am a follower of Christ
My sword is drawn, and I am ready to fight


4 comments:

MaryRC said...

thats such a cool journal. you really should focus on your writing, you are so very talented, yes you are..
xoxo mary

Jessica B said...

Wow! What an awesome find! I'd be converted to writing every day if I had that journal!! You are so very talented. You are a beautiful writer, and good writers are good thinkers. I have no doubts that you will be able to work whatever miracles God has need of your help on!

Tara McClendon said...

Wonderful thoughts. I'm glad you shared, and the journal seems like quite the find.

kys said...

What a terrific journal. I can't believe you found it at a thrift store.