Feeling like a fool...

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above
~Glenn Frey

Confessions aren’t easy. Especially when I know that this will let you my blogging friends (and others) down. But I must get this off my chest. I must come clean if I am ever to move forward.

Sometimes in life we make commitments based solely on the fact that we know it’s what’s best for us. I am one who has done this. I made a commitment to stay with one who was good for me, who had my best interest at heart, one who would take care of me and see me through for the long haul—even though my passion for another still ran deep.

They say transgression begins in our thoughts and oh how my thoughts betrayed me. I tried to stay focused, to push unwanted fantasies out of my mind, but no matter how I tried to combat it, an untamed fervor pulsed through me and soon…it was too late.

It started out small, a quick bite at lunch or a brief encounter for dinner, then it all fell apart. Maybe it was because I had tried to move on too quickly. Perhaps if I had let go in stages instead of trying to stifle my desires so abruptly, this wouldn’t have happened. But it did happen. As much as I hate to admit it, it did. I succumbed to temptation, spiraling into a torrid affair…
with the one I love.

TO BE CONTINUED…