Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Creativity deprived...

I was editing my book this morning and loving it. Much like Ralphie from A Christmas Story, I thought-- wow this is pretty good and daydreamed of an editor from Random House dancing around her office writing A+++ on everything. Then of course the little devil of doubt had to come along and spoil everything. He landed on my shoulder and started scoffing "Who are you kidding? You stink." Just before throwing the whole manuscript into the fire, I decided it would be better to take a break from it while waiting for the devil to get bored and go away. Since I was already on my computer I decided to check out some blogs. I ended up blog hopping onto the site of someone I didn't know because her blog was recommended by someone I did know-- and let me just say, she is a creative genius. I was in awe of her talents. Looking at her blog got me itching for a creative outlet of my own. I haven't done anything creative in so long. No wonder I'm on the verge of insanity and suffering a serious case of writer's block. I'm creativity deprived. I'm drowning in monotony. I'm not a girl who does well with monotony. I even have to make up fun little games and challenges to get my housework done. Pathetic I know. I need to build something, or paint, or refinish, or re-cover. My favorite gifts have always been power sanders, or staple guns, giant folding ladders, or a laser leveler (now that was something special) and there is nothing quite like paint encrusted fingernails to make you feel alive.
The lady whose blog I admired is more of a Martha Stewart creative genius and I love that. I would love to do all of those cutesie, fun things, but that takes creativity and organization and sadly I am not organized. I am more of the deranged artist creative type, working in a psychotic flurry while the world falls down around me until-- ta-da, my masterpiece is born. But that's okay, I don't have to be Martha Stewart, I just have to be creative. So tell me, have you done anything creative today?


CrabbyFamily said...

your blog is creative, your writing is creative, your mind is creative, you just need a creative launch, a big burst of senses stirring and designing and well, passion. Go paint something sister, you know you have a project in you somewhere.. but, start Monday. :-} i wanna see you this weekend..