Sunday, September 14, 2008

Slowly but surely...

My Love tells me that I have a beautiful singing voice. My kids like it too. I on the other hand am not so easily impressed, or kind, so I normally only sing at home or in the car with those who think I am wonderful~ even if they are a bit deaf.
But today at church, in my quest to become less timid in public, I forced myself to actually sing the opening hymn out loud instead of just mouthing it as I usually do. But then I heard myself just a little too well, became self conscious and quit.
So this changing biz is going to take time alright. I can't become socially dynamic in one day. I have layers upon layers of self doubt to crack through. But I'm telling you I'll get 'er done. I don't like to be told that I can't do something, even if (or maybe especially if) it's just me who's saying it.


This little section of a quote by Elder Franklin D. Richards was my favorite part of our YW lesson today:

"... we grow by having to exceed our past selves”

I love this thought. It is the theme of my whole life. Working everyday to exceed my past self (past meaning yesterday or even 10 minutes ago) is what gives me the greatest joy and excitement!
Knowing that with my Savior's help I can overcome anything gives me warm fuzzy goosebumps that make me want to SING (even if it's not out loud at church)!


Cedar said...

I sound great in the shower and thats about it. I usually mouth the words to, thats funny. I wonder how many other people do that??:)

Liz Davis said...

My cure all for singing in sacrament meeting is to be a part of your special needs mutual group. These handicapped young adults sing because they can and they sing loud and they sing with love. I find myself singing that way still and it feels great!

Lori said...

Jeanette, you don't know me but Rick does. He and my husband Wyatt grew up together. I found your blog through Rachel's and I just wanted to tell you how inspiring you are to me. You have such an amazing positive attitude and I love how you are driven to improve yourself, to be better. I also loved your little quote about being better than our past selves. Aren't we lucky that we are given the chance to be better? You inspire me to be better. Thanks.

Madison Shea... said...

OKAY OH MY GOSH I TOTALLY HEARD YOU SING!!!! i was like "holly cow she sings good i had no idea!!!" I even talked to Bea about it!! That is funny! No i love you singing voice!!!! SING MORE!!!!! haha

4boyzmdmom said...

Isn't it funny that we all have insecurities?! Now, I've always thought you were one of the most beautiful, talented, creative (not to mention nice) people I know! I've never heard you sing, but I bet you really do have a beautiful voice!